sperintellignce is here. I told chris it was here (he's interning at a hedge fund, having massively surpassed me in salary, quite the unexpected turn), and he retorted "you only have to be smarter than ai in one dimension". and I retorted with "im smarter in cybersecurity and pure math counter examples". its truly insane. and beautiful and awesome. I love ai. it was obvious with rama. "ai became rama ready before rama became ai ready" immediaetly people were stupider than ai. clear as day. our largest problem as abusiness was being too confusign for develpoers. I think that is partially presentation, partially jsut a lot of complexity.
im on a plane right now. flygin to a job interview in sf. I hope the girl next to me on the plane is reading this, she is cute. but i can't stop it i need to type, right now my edible is hitting.
i have a standing offer to show up at nigels house anytime i want. its like a bit. last time i called him he told me i was welcome. i kinda wish he didn't cause i already knew i was welocme, adn the more you do the bit the more it decays in funniness. imagine in the limit texting your friend "doors always open" every day, but haha its a joke. ok lost the thread there.
I moved to austin for a couple reasons. The main one was that I was tired of living with my parents. 6mo of a heartbreak shattered mind licking my wounds was nice. and i felt very safe. whichever dimension i was in back then. lots of.. walking. and sexual energy momentum that fell off a cliff.
mge.tf and philly lan. nyc boston mge.tf drama, admin shakeup, (insert transcript of the planning call lady)
is it more appropriate to flirt with your financial advisor or your therapist. that would be a good tweet.
karen video. I am still hopelessly in love with my ex girlfriend. but i joke that "one girl would fix me". and my therapist told me that "in order to get over karen you need to be under someone else". lfmao. But still I love karen deeply, and cry about her more days than not, 1 year later. At the end of my boston trip, the week I was there happened to coincide with when Mia was visiting the friend house (or as I like to call it the castle. I named our shared apartment in NEU West Villiage dorm The Penthouse, and it stuck, even years later, I just heard Ford refer to something as coming from the penthouse. That made me warm inside. But I tried ot name the new place "The Castle", because it has an epic fenced back yard, that people used to hold house shows at. I brought them to one their fresman year, my 2nd year, thanks to jake chvatal introducing me to the house show scene. not that I personally was much of a partkaer. tight social spaces and lots of bumping can only be tolerated by a very drunk and still terrified tommy. But I named it the castle and that didn't stick, it was in competition with the street: Wensley. Wensley is a good name. You win this round Wenslesy.
anyways, its karen's birthday on the 12, its the 7th tonight. at the end of my visit, when mia came to visit. i was planning on making a video for karen. like i said earlier, she was convinced that everyone hated her becauses he's jewish, republican, and a zionist. she also has a healthy dose of jewish victim mindset, which, i suppose that's appropriate. I recently told her that I felt the simmer of antisemetism rising slightly, and so i told her that "this time at least you have a bunch of guns". she told me. on our visit, listing her comedy bits off her notes app "you know you hear about rising antisemetism, and im not that worried, but im keeping a diary just in case."
anyways, its karens's birthday on the 12, and its the 7th tonight. I was in boston (after nyc after philly). visiting my friends, and my lovely cambridge family. I didn't see the parents/aunts because they were travelling. I walk into the crowd at the castle, its late, and i get a heroes welcome. because they love me, and also because they are a stable found family, and im the ooutside traveler bearing storeis. it felt like in the oddesy, where they value the whispers and rumours and gossip above all else from travellers.it used to be information took time to travel, nowadays he illiod would be a tweet, and the odeesy would be a quote tweet. lots of retweets tho. Epic poetry is so epic we need to have bard guilds again. or maybe we do and they're called ____.
i was in boston, and the first day i arrive, they hint of the friday party. where Mia, who moved away for a PhD, to some midwestern place. She found a dreamy farmer-looking boyfriend though good for her. She's visiting which is an ultra rare event. Ford tells me he speficially planned it as "Leo season" because there's three august birtdays, me, karen, ford, and one more idk. And people are rarely in town and I was goign to be.
BUT, i got a job interview. Krrish, from litellm (a python package that is somehow a company), reached out ot me on linkedin, and I passed a jovial first srceening where he made fun of me for saying the word TAM. which is funny. because its a good word. then i passed the technical interview. simple python coding challenge, the hard part was my emacs was fucked up LMAO, and i forgot how to use named arguments in python. So they like to move fast, so they invited me for an "onsite interview" which is tomorrow which imflyign to.
i was in boston and the first day i arrive, i hatch ap lan to make karen a video. But now my job interview is forcing me to laeve on friday, the flights just don't work. So i'm missing hte party, i try and fail to make the video before friday, and then I text Mia: "can i enlist you in a project?" and pitch the video to her. and she bites hard. so I'm really hoping she comes through and sends it to her. The elegance of the gift is that it doesn't come from me and i'm not in it. its like tzedaka rules, not taking credit for the donation by making it anonymous.
At the castle I also slept on the couch one night because I was drinking several beers, and it was a really nice relaxing night with my friedns. But it was hot as balls and I sweat all night. I missed Anne's central AC. Kevin Gator (Matt Lord) is having conundrums about what he should study. Both me and Owen DeArmond spend a considerable amount of time convincing him he's a fantastically talented musician/artist and should pursue that, until KG's coyness spurs Owen to call him out for fishing for compliments. Then I say: Enough thinking, bust out the ableton. He then stands up and grabs his laptop and cooks up, right there, while im laying on thec ouch talking to ai and drinking beer, cooks up a fresh dubstep song that was sick as fuck. Owen is copiloting him, suggesting chagnes to the side chaining or frobnisticator or soundgoodizer, LFO's into arpeggios into a sample oft used owen calls it 'Ol-reliable. I make one observation, a transition between two melody cuts is awkward. i suggest a wrong fix, but he agreed with and fixed the problem. kimi k3 did that to me the other day. Owen is worried KG is going to peak the speaker and damage it. He's producing over bluetooth to a 200$ JBL that is baller.
was really quite fun. We debate luck vs skill in music indstry. I try to make the quote about luck vs preparedness. but I can't find the exact words and I mostly portray the right vibe. One of the subbass lines is so grand it sounds like whales deep in the ocean. KG is waering silken pants and a linen shirt. Then the next day 80s short shorts.
I have a conversation with owen on the couch one day, where I confess my love for karen. He comforts me that karen is only probably in the top 20% of potential matches for tommy. I complain that my funnel is failing even before they hit the fact that i'm schizoaffective bipolar. He counters with the fact that I am seemingly very high functioning. He discusses his favorite author ___ and wittgenstein who was a baller who wrote a masterpiece of nubmered clauses while in the trenches of ww1. but then gave up on it and became a schoolteacher or something. I told him there was one video that really threw me for a loop in my 2023 schizo phase, of a student video projcet explaining langauge games. except the video itself had a verbal gaffe/typo, so i was like, is that part of the game too? are there cyphers all around me??? then the world exploded. anyways.
we also see the movie the oddesy with chloe and lucia and ethan and zach and matt and ford. Ford and chloe are the cutes couple ever. I love telling this story. But me and karen had a hard time, early on, finding approval from the group for our relationship. and i could smell a relationship coming on from chloe and ford. well it was obvious. ford had an long distance ex, and chloe had a similar story. it was obvious because they played halo reach splitscreen together late into the night while drinking. I can't imagine a more romantic activity. it was winter break from school, matt had already left so its just me and ford in the dorm (ford had the dorm to himself that weekend...) and im heading out to the airport, duffel around my neck. I stop him and say"i'm about to drop a bomb... but I think it would be cool if you got with with chloe". lo and behold, they start dating a week later. a year later ford tells me that they did hook up that night and he did have shame about it and i did help lhim overcome it. 2 years later and ford is remarking that it was because of my "autist empathy" that I was able to detect their relationship while they were trying to keep it a secret. Master cheif and cortana coudln't make it more obvious. TODO correct master cheif to what it is in Reach, i think he has a different name in Halo:Reach.
waiting in the boston common for the movie, I consider doing my bit where I arrive at a function with headophones on and if they try to talk to me, i shush them and say "after this song", while air guitaring. but i wimp out and approach normally. I do tell chloe about my bit though, how funny it would have been. She seems reasonable endeared by the concept LOL. Anyways I do start a good bit chain by saying "im going to use the bathroom durign the horse scene, like its classic, i already know how it plays out" (meanwhile, its the climax of the movie, you wouldn't want to miss it). That starts at least 4 pile on jokes so that was a good feeling. We also discuss cicadas, and why they only strike on prime numbers. I consult claude, who gives me an explanation that goes over my head.
On the way over that night, I buy new shoes at the new balance store, because my austin shoes have a hole through both soles from wear. I then call my mom and she seems worried about me, because I am so pumped up to see my friends.
Also, I make an off comment that I wanted to bleach my hair, and all 4 of my friends immediately say YES that would be so sick. So I do. That was fun.
Also tomorrow is when Ken Kurson invited me to shabbat dinner at his apartment. Karen's very cool dad. So I have that pressure on me.
i had a momnet when the album melodrama by lorde locked into place for me. to me it locks on specifically to the conbination of the jewish/gentile marriage. hammer to a nail, i know, but still, the pattern matched perfectly. in particular the line "king and queen of the weekend". Shabbat/saturday, Sabbath/sunday. I think that tracks im not a entymologist like rich hickey.
And magdelina bay. Exploded into my head recently. So SO SO good. and two people i knwo with really good taste also think so. also its #1 on RYM, LMFAO. internet consensus is just like so correct. radiohead IS the best music. thank you lord for introducing me to the /mu/ board classics topster when i was 12. that really sets you on a course.
im about to land in sf which makes me think of showing up to nigel's house unannounced, the anouncment is a picture of his door. However, for if I ever visit LA, I have an even better bit. I don't know nigels roomates, but Andrew Torgelson's roomates we've been friends for years. So my plan is to coordinate a time where I can sneak into the apartment without Andrew knowing, and come out of the shower with not but a towel draped around me.
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